Everythings been happening so fast lately
I still feel like I haven’t caught up with currents events
I’m naturally so adaptable to my surroundings and changes
I feel like life threw me a fastball and I caught it
I predicted lifes movements before they threw it
It seems like I have been waiting an eternity for this moment
However life threw two curveballs while I was distracted
I missed both, I failed to swing because I was still in a daze about my first catch
It didn’t really matter to me because you can’t hit them all, eventually
you will strike out
Lately lifes temperament been magical
I wouldn’t trade these feelings for anything
Meanwhile I slowly feel myself neglecting other aspects of my life
I’m gonna get to them eventually
you can’t fix anyones life in a day
Miracles don’t work that way
I’m just taking my time
While I let the thought of “us” take over my mind
could it be ?
I have grown accustomed to the darker sides of life.
I became entangled in my own shadows.
To the point where they became my friends,
hitting the trenches of life was nothing new or surprising to me.
In fact I had a bed on the floor of the ocean,
so when I would sulk I would at least feel comfortable.
being at the bottom was comfy, I didn’t want to see the light.
The distance from the sky and the ground was seemingly getting farther and farther away.
There would be times when I would swim to the surface to catch a glimpse, but nothing good ever came from it.
I always felt the sun was lying, trying to get me to fall into it’s trap
Like a small insect attracted to the brightest street light
I had neglected the sun
I didn’t want to feel it
I didn’t want to see it
but now, the sun is forcing it’s way into my life
gently making me acknowledge it’s existence.
I’ve always wanted to recognize the sun
but would the sun recognize me now ?
I’m ready to open my eyes to the light
Eventually replacing delusion with sight
I’m holding on to these feeling
With all of my might
Nathan Ridley. Curator, poet, blogger, party host, and founder of http://doseofanxiety.tumblr.com
I’m a lot of things other things; like a shinobi ninja of the village behind the projects
I been staring at the sky lately, it’s been this perfect hue
I just really don’t believe the sky has ever been this blue
I have always been the guys who’s head is in the clouds
But feet planted firmly on the ground
but I never been this close to the sun before
the flames on the surface are bright and dancing
it’s like they cant contain themselves anymore
Maybe I been caught in it’s gravitational pull
I’m swimming in space, and the earth never seemed so cool
I don’t want to come down from here
if you want me, you couldn’t get near
unless you ask the stars for help on your journey
they know who to help ascend
And leave those who are not worthy
perhaps what happens to the mind when the third eye is first obtained
or what exchanging super powers feels like
either or reality was reset
It’s conflicting from everything that was once irrelevant
taking over my mind the proof is evident
I’m sitting here knowing what’s right
and still corrupted in what’s wrong
But there was always a light shining
I never let it shine to bright,
Then it will only become blinding
I had control over it for so long
the sky was really blue today by the way
I’m really into weird
The type of mind I can’t place my finger on
I know it been though things, but I cant tell where it’s been
The type of person I want to get really high until all the color
Turns into black and white
I’m really into weird
Things that appear upside down are always right side up in another perspective
less laundry with less clothes
When it comes to style and fashion I am a man of simple pleasures.
I honestly don’t feel the need to have but so many clothes because I like pretty much simple shit.
If I had to choose an outfit to wear for the rest of my life it it would probably be black jeans, a dark colored tee-shirt (preferably black) and a black hoody .
Why so much black ?
Well I’m a ninja of the night, and I like to dance with the shadows.
I think I’ll be this way till I die.
Which brings me to today’s laundry mission, I guess I’m the type to go wash clothes when all my clothes are noticeably dirty (l.e stains, spots and shit)
So today I’m dumping out my dirty clothes bin, and that’s when it dawned on me I have to many clothes.
To many clothes I don’t wear
To many clothes to fold when I get home -_-
I’m not a fashion type, so I don’t need to get dressed for any occasions.
How you see me today is more than likely how you will see tomorrow
I think i’m going to narrow down my wardrobe to 5 of everything.
5 pairs of jeans
5 button ups.
(underwear and socks are the exception of course)
Everything else is being thrown away as of today.
Well actually donated to this thrift shop I frequently visit.
I can’t wait till eventually clothes are obsolete, and we are engineered with a one piece suit that will transform into whatever outfit we desire with a push of a button
(excuse my imaginative concepts)